There are so many time when I wonder is the Lord is at work in me.  If I am learning or growing.  I think that right now is one time when I see it very clearly.  I am in the middle of a lesson that I am not sure what it is but I know that the Lord is making me more into him.  He is changing me and molding me.  It is also a very scary one and every day I want to skip class and not learn but I know deep down that is needs to be learned.  I need to go thru this no matter how much it hurts.  

Why does it hurt so much?  I think that is because I am so attached to who I am in the flesh.  I don't realize that if I just let go it will be okay.   Something is holding me back.  It is keeping me from growing closer to the Lord.  And no I don't like that and if I knew what it is that is making me hold on so tightly I think I would be able to somehow to let go and let God take over.   But it is hard and scary.  And as a human I don't want to do the hard and scary things sometime.  But I am very slowly learning that that is where the Lord will meet you.  When you talk that jump, when you let go. when you do something that you are scared about you survive. 

So are you holding on to something too.  Are you scared to let go and let God drive.  Why don't we try to let go even if it is jsut a little bit.  Take that leap.  What is the worst that can happen.  You get caught by the Lord.